I Reap What I Sow
So I know that I decided for my website to not have gigantic multiple-page reviews where everything is jumbled together. I stand by that decision, but I am annoyed at it. I am starting to remember why I am not one to really be making a lot of posts. These past couple of weeks of me forcing myself to try and create new posts and catch up on old reviews that I more or less just choose at random. It is such a pain in the ass to have to force myself to write something when I am not inspired.
That seems to be a part of my everyday life these days. Very few anime, when I started, got me inspired, and very few do today as well. IT GETS EVEN HARDER when I have to think about anime that I have not seen or thought about for a while. Then I need to rewatch them and hope that I can find something to talk about. That is how life works out, but still, it does not make it any less difficult. Not having any desire to be productive cuts into this as well.
Yes, I am going through one of those phases where I have trouble thinking about what I want to do. That is never easy to deal with. I have to sit here and try and make sure that I find something to do. Yet I am not sure what I want to do. I have started several games but am not sure which one to sit down and grind all the way through on. I have this website to keep updating to learn new stuff, yet I do not feel like breaking what is already working even if I would gain access to a lot of things. Then I have to deal with all my lack of inspiration at work. Everything just kind of falls apart, and I am left to think what is the point of even trying to make everything work out. Not to mention that I have new anime that I need to keep up with an update in the database.
I feel inspired to write from time to time, but at the same time, I am not sure what to do for all of that as well. I literally use up all of my writing power in there, and I have to find a way to get back on that horse. Still, things are going a bit better, I guess. I guess there is not much that I can do about this stuff other than keep going. Maybe that is what checklists are for. I have one that lets me make notes. Perhaps I should use it to try and keep organized, so I do not lose track of all my thoughts.
I am pretty sure I have other blogs about this, but like I said, I am not inspired to write about stuff, and I am not really a news site, so I have nothing that I can really write about other than to just keep watching stuff and whining about my boring life. I guess that is another reap what you sow thing as well. When you pride yourself on not being required to leave your apartment for any reason for multiple days, it does make things much harder when you try to get up and do other stuff. I guess I will just have to get back on that horse and make sure that I get the content flowing again. That should not be too hard, plus it gives me something to do.